I'm Mad.. I'm Sad..

Well, as you all know, I'm actually living with my parents.. And right now, since they're gone to perform the 'Haji', I'm staying with my aunt. Well, actually she's still single. But, what matters now is that, since she's living with us (me and my 3 younger brothers), she have to take the responsibility of everything that involve our family including the house, the cats and also the fishes.. Guppy fishes.. and many more.. -I guess-

But things did not goes pretty well. You know what, I got four tanks of guppy. 2 of them were placed in front of our house.. The other two were placed behind some vases.. So, it was kinda hidden.. But all of us know that there are some guppy inside it..

My aunts kept talking about what she had done.. That's the first thing I hate to talk about.. But because I'm too depressed and I've got nobody to talk to right now, I'm still gonna tell you guys about this..
She kept saying that she's tired and she's this and that and whatever, I don't care. I know she's tired because she'd to do all of the things that my mum usually do.. Well I did help her.. But, what makes me sick is that she kept saying that.. And saying that she'd to do all of the things.. Make it looks like my brothers and I had done nothing to help her. My mum never said that.. She will just keep quiet whether she's tired or something..

Next thing, is about the fishes,Guppy. You know, my aunt kept telling me she had to fed the fish, and the cats and all of that.. So, when she said like that, I expect that she'd fed the fishes in all of the tanks. To my surprise, yesterday, I saw all of the guppy in one tank (one from two of the tanks that are hidden by the vases) were dead.. So, the water was sooo smelly.. I asked her bout that.. Then, she was like " huh? what happened? This is all your fault.. Not my fault.. I fed the fish, I fed the cats.. So, why can't you help me feed the fishes(in the tanks that are hidden).. I didn't know that there are guppies in there(the tanks).. It's not my fault.. I don't care.. If your parents ask bout this, you're the one who should answer! I don't care cause this is not my fault! I'm not responsible for this!!" and that I was like,"Huh?!?!"..

I know that as the first child, it's my responsibility to all of this, but, when I asked her whether she'd fed the fish or not, she said she had.. So, I expect she'd fed the fishes in all tanks.. It's not my fault right? Plus, her house is near mine.. She'd been staying there for almost 5 years.. So, why in world she have not know that there are guppies inside it?! She always visit my house.. Why didn't she know bout it?!

Then, when anyone called her(such as my uncle or my aunt), asking her about us, she told them bout the fishes.. Claiming that it's all our fault.. And automatically, I, as the oldest one, had been blamed for it.. This is not FAIR!!!!!!!!!!! What should I do?! I'm depressed.. Thank God my parents will be back tomorrow night.. I miss them so much.. I cannot stand to live with my aunt another week.. If that happens, I think I'll be mad..

At this moment, I realize how important my parents are.. They're my everything.. No one else understand us better like the way they did.. "We miss you so much!"

XOXO,